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God will guide those whose hearts are open to follow. It is that simple. Be faithful in what God calls you to today, and he will lead you tomorrow. God is more committed to having you walk in his will than you are. If you have a heart that is passionately trying to do God's will, he will lead you.

I'm so mad at the way one tree hill just keeps us GUESSING nowadays. But the finale was really good. Stupid Lindseys probally gonna get that phone call. But whatever! Todays been annoying.. schools getting tougher to go to. Especially on time. & Today was the last day for seniors.. how crazy is that? I can't wait till Monday. I wanna go to the beach. Anyway, I have too much homework for all of this.

ugh i've been left with no time to update lately, but i have so much to talk about! Most of it will end up in my private entry, though. So all week, nesta was oddly.. nice. like, really flirty and just, nice.. I kinda just went along with the flow. Then Saturday rolled around. I went to work, opened, and the day just went kinda perfect. Busy but not crazy.. & the nicest people talked to me at my desk, haha. & My registers settled perfect at the end of my shift :]! I got home around 4, took a shower, then around 4:30 went to Froggers for Sams bday dinner. A lot of people ended up going & it was a lot of fun. Sam wanted to stay till 8 for trivia, but I ended up leaving around then. I wasn't going to, but she gave me that whole "This IS what you want ya knowww" spiel and I just went. It was really really... nice. But i'll havta leave it at that. After, I drove to Sams bc everyone was staying the night. I walk in the house and all 16549665 girls are like "Ok! lets go!!!" & i was like whaaaa its 1 in the morning! Then we did detective business ;] and it was amazinggggg. Then we watched Juno, which I fell asleep to bc it wasn't that great. Woke up somehow in sams bed? Hungout and test drove her new carrr :D which is really cute! Then I had car troubles & I went home to take a nap and watch evan almighty. & today was kinda, off. I got in a really big argument with whats his face, but things are okay now. it's just really annoying. i need to do my history hw :(

Until next time<3..

i don't know why i haven't updated but i have a lot to talk about. but i guess i can't really say much on here anymore, anyway. hmph. i'll just do a dumb survey. But today has been so odddd. Because someone got sick we didn't hang and i was just gonna stay home till chrissy and allison called me asking me to go to allison's birthday party. I wanted to, but I was sure it'd be awkward. & to be honest, it wasn't one bit. & I feel dumb for ever thinking it would be.

Does the last person you shared a bed/couch with mean anything to you?
That was Chrissssy & yes, she really does.


Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Nope.



Can you handle the truth?
For the most part.



Do you kiss a lot of people?
Nope.. "a kiss should ALWAYS mean something."



If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
making someones night better.


Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
Jeremy? nah. he's a little weird, but i guess its cool.



Would you rather have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?
it sucks but loved and lost.


Have you ever streaked across a football field?
lol sorry.



Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say:
oh wellllll sure yeah whatev, haha.



How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Not too much. I'm pretty open.



Who do you trust the most in your life?
God. and sam.


Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
Usuallly they remind me of a boy.. and i don't mind that anymore.


Are you happy with where you are relationship right now?
honestly, no.


How long ago did you hug someone?
like 30 minutes ago.



Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
i hate coffee and i don't drink.


Do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive. because I never forget.


Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
Yeah. stupid.



Who was the last person you yelled at?
Probally allison, shes loud :]



Do you know anyone who's addicted to any drugs?
they don't consider weed a drug.. but yeah. STUPID.



Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
yeahhh big time.



Where did you sleep last night?
my bed!


Did you have a good day yesterday?
deffffff lfkjalerpoiajfodj.



What was the highlight of today?
:) seeing some old loves..


Do you hate anyone?
strongly disagree with.. YEAH.


Do they know who they are?
stupid people do stupid things.



Do you have a best friend?
Pretty much..


Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
lol, no. but i wish sam had answered this one hahah



When was the last time you bought something?
I bought allison a huge thing of bubbles today at target.


Have you ever told someone you loved them?
& I meant it.



Do you play an instrument?
kinda sorta not really



What’s the reason behind your myspace display name?

breeeezy


In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to?
SUMMER. and...!


Have you ever dated someone older than yourself?
every time except once.


Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
it died so i threw it somewhere haha.



What are you wearing?
shorts and a t shirt.



What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?
grey



What is bothering you right now?
nothing!



I'll bet you miss someone right now?
I bet you you're right.



Are you high?
On life.



Do you shop for clothes?
duh.



Where do you think your best friend is right now?
home sleeeeeping



How often do you get onto myspace/facebook?
whenever. usually everyday.



Do you have any enemies?
it happens


Ever fell in a hole?
haha yea.



What last made you sad?
someone had a bad night.

I have the coolest dad in the world.
And the best secret ever.

happy birthday sam :]
today was kinda sucky. i went to j sterlings to see aryn
and got my hair dyed...again. lol. & now im gonna go get
dinner with my mom. byyyyyye.

lucas is so stupid.

Welp, I haven't updated in forever. Or like three days, but still. Past few days have been.. interesting. This whole heart thing is really annoying. I'm happy for Sam, though. She went on a date with the infamous "A"! I'm nervous for her, though.. really nervous. Oh! Tell your mommies I said happy mom day<3 My moms gonna love her gift. Anyway, today I went to work and did everything wrong pretty much. Then got flowers with my dad, and got the car and went to the mall with ashley woods. it was nice hanging out again. We went to go and see a late showing of Baby Mamma. haha, it was okay. But thats about it. Night :]

Todays been absolutely splendid.
BUT I'M SO CONFUSED. bc the "radar" went off.
Pisses me offffffffff :) i guess. I finally got a haircut
but its not much of a difference. Just back to being
short! Uh, I just bought these online. How freaking
cool?!@?


yeah. be jealous. Anyway! My phones about to dieee :(
and i havta go write a sonnet. ugh. schools SO gay.
Oh! and i got the cutest dress for graduation :D yay!

Whatttttt a day. A good one.. but yeah. One tree hills coming on tonight :] in fifteen minutes to be exact. I have a feeling peytons gonna get her heartbroken :( I'm trying to dodge doing my math homework and history project. Blugh! i'm really excited for the rest of the week.

I finallllly cleaned my room. I finally had TIME to clean it :]
Felt good, haha. My room gets me so freaking excited lol.
Anyway, I worked saturday. 8:30 to 3:30. I think I'm finally
getting the hang of it. But! Other than that things are good.
And I'm about to hop in the shower & drive to sams. Hope
you wekiva kids had fun at prom :]

I'm fighting with Sam. It's whatever. We'll be fine by tomorrow. I gave in to drinking coke today :( gay. I have a spanish test tomorrow. Even gayer. But i did start at color lab today. Only for Aryn to tell me shes dunzo there. I'M SO PISSED AT HER. but it's whatever. life's been pretty chillll lately. I don't want things to change that.

Welllllll my loves today was kinda boring. & For a Wednesday, all of my classes went by realllly slow. We got notice that schools officially gonna start at 9 next year and get out at 4 and im PISSED. Thats no gooood! Blah. My fingers hurt from texting all day, haha :( how weird. But anyway! Today I had to stay home to do my english project that i loveeeeee :] it makes so much sense, in a deep sentimental way. And when I was at target getting the stuff, I saw cork board stuff! I bought some and I just finished putting it up on my wall :D I LOVE IT. So! I suggest you give me pictures of you and I so I can add on to it <3 mmm, lifes lookin up. I cannot wait for summer.

haha, what a great day today's been (:
I was first to see Sams new doooo! I'm glad
she went for it, because it looks amazing<3
I'm happy for her. Made me wanna cut mine
again, but uhh not so much. i'm happy.

I wanna go back to being "lucky".
But I think it's okay to settle for being "blessed", instead.

I got to sleep in today! Then I woke up & watched Georgia Rule (which was really good) while making breakfast. Danced in my undies to Whitney Houston, haha. Then my mom got  home & we finallyyyy got to go to Apopka's Art Festival. It was so cute. I love going every year. But I must say running into Tiff and her family there was a first. Haha, I love my mom. Her & I split up and did our own thing and she came back with this gift.. that made me cry. And I wish i could say what it was but I can't. But it just reassured me that everythings gonna be okay. Everything. We sat down and listened to the live bands and ate funnel cakes together. It was really nice. Then afterwards I came home & forgot I was supposed to drive to Sharrell's so she just came here. We made her campaigning posters for tmr :] I feel like I'M running after all these posters i've done for her & Kaylee. haha. But! after that my mom betted me five bucks that I wouldn't do something. I did it. Holy....crap<3

So, I honestly HATE when a person tries to make plans that
they KNOW are important to me, lastttt minute. And since I alreadyyyy have plans its my fault. Seriously, people are annoying. I just got home from Sams sisters play and it was cool but really long. I'm exhausted. And kinda pissed. Night<3

I feel super dumb right now. That's besides the point. I woke up this morning and realized it was take your child to work day. I do it every year with my mom. I love teaching that kindergarten class :] It made me want kids like PRONTO. But uh, sike! They were really adorable, though. I drove home around 12 and ate a lot of ice cream, watched a lot of one tree hill.. took a nap.. It was kinda just "blah". Then I drove to Kaylee's to finish off her posters.. Job Interview at Color Lab. Got the job, and my interview was really good. Then drove around a lot. I just needed to think.. and cry. It's been awhile. My hearts tired.

Went to Trinity today. I miss it. A lot.
It was really awkward most of the time.
But whatever. I'm so tired. And my phones
just about dead. Again. Byeeeee

Todays the 22nd...<3 ah.
The talent show was crazy.
Only Apopka.. seriously. But,
todays been really really good!